2011

This year is going to be a fabulous year, I can feel it. My youngest son is out of Afghanistan, he is stationed in Vicenza,Italy. He just got his orders so his wife and 14 month old daughter can come live with him. I have been in telephone contact with my daughter who I had given up for adoption 28 years ago today. She has beautiful 7 month old son. I look forward to the day that I can see them and hug them in person. My oldest son is not speaking to me but I view this as being his problem as he has for 13 years he has chosen his in-laws over his brother & his mother. That has hurt us for years...feeling his neglect. I finally found the courage to call him on it without feeling guilty. So I view it a it being his deal and not mine. I am here loving him the same as always but I'm not going to be made to feel like a second class citizen by him or anybody. I have felt that way for too many years, which I self inflicted. That part of my life is over. I see the good in myself. I am worthy of love and happiness and I don't "deserve" to be treated like crap. I have faith in God like I have never had before. I look forward to the future of this year. I sense that it is going to be full of change, filled with happiness, and lots of love. So a belated Happy New Year to all in blog land.